Monday, September 28, 2015

Searching From Within

If we were lost when the world was ending
I'd spend my days searching for you
My heart would beat to find yours
I'd use it as a guide
I would know where to go

I'd try to find the fastest way
By all means necessary
I'd even walk on my tired feet for days
I wouldn't give up easily
I'd search until I saw your face

It wouldn't matter where we were
Our hearts and minds would know
The connection between us will be unbroken
Our will is as strong as our love
We know ourselves from within

And I know that we'd find each other within reasonable means
We would find each other without suffering

Friday, September 25, 2015

Sink or Swim

The difference between us
was the distance apart
love was strong for you
but I questioned my heart

I made the decision to live in another city
and you let me go freely
your heart was anchored
it was safe at home

Mine battled through
I was left beaten and alone
in the trenches bruised and scarred
crawling in solitude in the dark

I wasn't sure what I was working towards
my life seemed like it wasn't my own
it felt like I was treading water
Just floating
I didn't know what I was living for

You didn't know how I became more guarded
I didn't see what you could offer
Being alone was becoming more normal to me

You threw me a life raft
But I couldn't see
I didn't know where to swim
after floating free

Do I grab on to something that I used to know?

Or swim a different direction to the great unknown?

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Love as a tragedy

He left me hanging
A noose around my neck
He agreed that I should go kill myself
"It's not too late" he said

I cried and walked away
Hoping he would give into the chase
Be he didn't do anything
Why would he try

He gave up months ago
And I was the reason why
Saying "I love you" stopped being enough
And I retreated inside

No reason to be out
No mid day stop and surprise
No reason for him to come around
Just reasons for me to die

I gave him all of my keys
My life in his hands
 But he didn't even try to open the door
He didn't comprehend

Even with all the answers I gave him
He still didn't pass

So I compiled all the reasons to end this tragedy fast
No hand written suicide note
If I did, I would have felt better

But this time I didn't put forth the effort
It was time for my life to end
Just time for me to go
Maybe in the after life
Love I will know